OCD : Obsessive-compulsive disorder : a neurosis that can take on many different shapes for as many different people. For some, it is the over-exaggerated fear of germs, which causes the person afflicted to paranoiacally wash their hands over and over again. For others, it is the continual repetition of rituals, like locking and unlocking one's door a number of times. For myself, it has manifested itself as my constantly checking and rechecking everything; from whether the front entrance is locked, to whether the fridge door has been properly closed (the result of a childhood incident). Much of my unpunctual nature can be attributed to this disorder as it has me spending large amounts of time patrolling my house in the hopes of appeasing the worry that something is out of order. Once, I even walked back home on a distance of at least 5 minutes just to check whether the toaster-oven had been properly turned off.
However, it's not all bad, there are a few advantages to this: the chances of me causing a fire in the kitchen, because of my carelessly forgetting to turn off the hotplates, are almost nonexistent; I will probably never flood the house because I clogged the toilet and did not notice; and there is no way I will be responsible for the accidental defrosting of all the meat in the freezer.
Still, despite all this, OCD remains an unpleasant presence in my life. I have read that indulging in one's impulses only leads to the worsening of the condition and that the only sure way of curing one's self is to ignore the compulsions completely (or at least as long as possible), something which I have found to be exceedingly difficult. Still, I have made some progress over the past few years and am hoping to make a full recovery.
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